The other night I heard my mom talking to her best friend on the phone. She was saying “I wish Stephanie could have that kind of surgery done. So she could see.” She was talking about corrective surgery. More specifically she was talking about the surgery that her best friend’s daughter had several years ago in which she got a new set of corneas or something. Thus, rendering her able to drive and do all the normal things that sighted people take for granted. (I’m not bitter. I swear!
Here’s the thing I can’t have that sort of surgery. Because my retinas are detached. I know, I know they’re working on fixing it, but here’s the second thing. I’m not sure I’d want to be able to see
I know, you’re probably asking yourself why I wouldn’t want to be able to see. It’s the same thing that my eye doctor asked me when I said the exact same thing sitting in his office chair. So here goes my explanation.
The truth is that I can see some, but it’s not exactly useful. I can see for example, the color yellow assuming that it’s bright enough for me to tell what it is, but I get other colors like red and pink mixed up. Sometimes, depending on whether my eyes want to cooperate I can see the various windows on a computer screen, but I can’t see any of the print inside, or on them. Sometimes I can see pictures, but I can’t identify the objects inside the photos.
That might be all well in good sounding to you, but consider this. The same vision that be so helpful except for print can be a disaster when traveling. I have been known to mistake driveways for curbs, alyways for streets ETC. That’s when I wish I had no vision.
Here’s the third thing. I’m not sure how much I’d be able to see, or how effective it would be. I kind of like where I am right now and I’m not sure I want to change it. I mean maybe I’d be like Algernon in flowers for Algernon and it would work for a bit, then reverse itself and I’d lose all my sight. (Ten points if you get that reference)
Which brings me to todays question:
Would you rather be fully sighted, or stay as you are? What if the surgery doesn’t work?
Thanks for reading!